Gosh, I'm sorry Blue. I can soooo relate to that. I've heard it soooo many times too. And from close family as well. It hurts when people just don't 'get' it. I know. It's a tough thing to deal with. But, you are tough my dear. Hang in there. YOU ARE NOT CRAZY!! I can promise you that. And we can get past those thoughts, it's just harder for us, for some odd reason, that simply hasn't been figured out yet. And people are afraid of what they don't understand, and can't explain. luv u friend....