I wonder if people here (on this entire site) know how much I have missed each of them while I could not participate here?

I wonder if they will understand they have continued to be a huge blessing to me while I have been away? Thoughts of them have brought me much joy while away.

I wonder if people will understand when I tell them I had become far too ill to participate here and/or on any forum?

(I have wondered, many times, if I'd ever be well enough to participate here again.)

I wonder if I am well enough yet to start participating again?

I wonder if I can allow myself to try to particiapte again now, despite fearing I'll (quickly) become too ill and will have to leave again?

I wonder why I am tearful as I write this just now?

I have missed you! Good to be back.