Thanks so much to everyone who has been so kind.

If I may so bold to ask -- I know some of you have recently lost loved ones, particularly parents. How did you cope with it? Especially if you don't quite have the faith that everyone else leans on? I'm not so sure I believe in something "bigger" than us.

I have sought counseling but even she agrees that without having faith, it is extremely difficult.

Please do not give me any lectures on faith - it is exactly that reason as to why I frown on organized religion.

I just need to know how to soften the blow and get through a day without crying.

Thanks in advance for any suggestions.