Thanks for showing me to the forums I really appreciate it. I think I am getting the hang of things a little bit. I will try not to sob so much from now on and also not get too enthralled...that's right isn't that the bipolar forum? Just kidding. Obviously it should be about medical issues and the Schizophrenia forum is really neat. I'm just trying to understand and communicate my joy. I also wanted to mention that today I realized what "bad" means and that you don't have to be bad if you don't want to be. You can take medication. Thats just part of the goal Im working to achieve. I don't know if medication gets rid of the bad but Im sure that the person I saw when I wasn't taking the medication is very different from the person taking the medication. So

Getting used to it is not easy because it is one of those things where if you screw up once its like the end of the world.

So I try to keep up with things. Even though I am stuck. What was a major leap for me was getting over the whole victim thing and realizing that I was in a trap. And then actually getting out of it. That helped me tremendously.

Then I was able to see that the medication was not all bad and that I had been making a bigger deal of it then I should have and it could have been part of my illness. It makes sense though that they don't diagnose me as schizophrenic when I have the drug related injury of schizophrenia. Just a thought.