((((((((Manda)))))))) Depression really is such a beast and it's got a hold on you right now. Please remember that our circumstances change..and that sometimes we just have to gut it out. I'm so glad you told us how rotten you are feeling...it's important to talk about it..we may seem like "strangers" to you but we are real people who have been where you are now, and lived to tell it. Few of us will have the opportunity to meet in person but that doesn't mean we don't understand how difficult it is sometimes to put one foot in front of the other and "carry on".

When I was on the floor, I sometimes got on my knees and sometimes that helped. Let us lift you up...or try to.