Alffe, I am sorry for your loss and after reading this over and over I understand how special your niece must have been. We all must face our fears whether we want to admit it or not. Pamela thought of facing hers with dishes. David faced his with a single stone. Some might say "Why not Me" or "Bring it on", but no matter how fearful or faithful we are, we understand, we will not have the strength to slay our Goliath.