Ohhhhh Terri, you are welcome here anytime, and you sound so much like me! Except I was only married once from 19-24 to a very abusive husband. Never did remarry but had the 2 greatest loves of my life...and they didn't work out. I've been alone for so long I can't even imagine living with a man and I don't care.
Well unless of course he was old, rich, adored me and left his entire estate to me.

I don't think anyone could tolerate living with me.
And that trust issue. I hear you loud and clear on that one. But then I'm 57 and and not as cute as I was at 47, lol.
Those battles just keep coming up don't they? Life is a challenge, that's for sure.
Hugs.