Hi I am so sorry for your family and own stresses. I can't imagine how hard this is. Do you have healthy people to support you through this? The only advice I guess I have is to make sure you reach out to the people that can help you in real time as well like family/friends that don't have health problems. Even just getting out I think for coffee with someone can help you fight through this and feel supported. Sending many better thoughts to you and your family