Thank you all, at least now hearing from you all, I don't feel like a total loser.

I have been in bed since Xmas night, I feel as though why bother getting up, only to take care of my mom and my pets.

I have no life, I have decided that. I have to go out tomorrow to take my mom to her Dr. appointment at 10am. Plus one of my girlfriends wants to get together so maybe I will, she has been through the same thing at one time.

I can't explain how I feel, I know I should of known better for one thing. It's raining a bit here today, which is a change, and we need it, plus it is December and that happens, I mean rain, not often though.

I will try and post more, lately I just haven't been up to it, or up at all. I also know that people that don't have depression and/or BP just don't understand. I wasn't treated very nicely at the hospital either.

Thanks everyone. Nikko