She said if you had to choose which breast cancer you had to get....this would be it. So, I guess I shouldn't be scared. But for some reason, I still am. I知 just terrified that I値l wake up and part or all of my breast will be gone. I don't want to lose ANY of it!! I mean, we've been together a long time.

My mom did have a very aggressive cancer. She had it in one side, had a mastectomy, then she got it in the other breast. She lived through a hell that I would not want anyone to go through. After seeing my mom go through these treatments I thought I would be more prepared for this. I knew in the back of my mind I would eventually get BC but not now, not yet. I知 grateful my PCP is so on the ball and insisted I get a screening mammo done or else I壇 never have known.

I知 now waiting to go to the surgeon Tuesday. Seems like an eternity waiting. The waiting is the hard part, thinking an awful thing is in your body and you want it out. When you are going through this thing you imagine the worst scenario and go from there, I think it allows you to prepare mentally for whatever news you get. I'm going down to the NJ shore, Wildwood, first week of August but if she wants to schedule surgery I just won't be able to go.

This afternoon I知 taking the second part of the CPA exam. I have to put this all out of my mind and concentrate on that.