BJ, i understand the need to have your mom tell you everything will be fine. For the longest time after my mom passed I had the urge for her to comfort me in all my sorrow and pain. Moms are good at comforting.

I feel for you for what you are going through. It's terrifying no doubt. I just said a prayer for you again. Put your right hand on your left shoulder and your left hand on your right shoulder and squeeze. That's me hugging you to let you know I care. Hang in there and remember that there is no right or wrong way to feel.

barbara