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Join Date: Oct 2006
Posts: 1,194
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Senior Member
Join Date: Oct 2006
Posts: 1,194
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Cancer breeds fear and I know that. I’m realizing that my human form is fragile and that life is tenuous at best. It shows us that we seldom have as much control as we think and not having control over our life leaves us anxious.
I’m trying so hard to not let anxiety steal anymore peace or grace from me. I’ve worked so hard for this. I talked to my priest today after mass and he quoted a passage from the bible that says why worry about tomorrow, when tomorrow comes it will have its own troubles to deal with.
I’ve been trying to preoccupy myself and played with Hooper today and worked in my garden. Meaningless tasks I guess unless you are the dog or the garden, but sometimes those moments of meaningless fun are all that we need to get over ourselves and our worries.
But you have no idea how many hours I spent studying for that test. I bet it’s about 150 hours I spent studying and I honestly don’t think I passed it.
I called my tdoc in the wee hours of the morning and told her. She said she’d be here for me 24-7 until I know more. I’m just feeling so overwhelmed and I’ll be glad to go to work tomorrow and not think about it. I’m going on 3 days without very little sleep so I hope I can sleep tonight.
Mrs D I'm not sure I know what you're talking about in the "other" board. But when I see the surgeon on Tuesday I'll ask about the flax oil. Thank you all for all the helpful information. I'm just beginning this journey and I have a lot to learn, a lot to wonder about.
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Cats nap, only humans put them "to sleep". Sterilize, don't euthanize!!
BJ
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