When I'm in a resentful mood, I resent that symptom the most. The reason is that the way I walk isn't the essence of who I am. The way I THINK is. And in that sense, I'm not me anymore.
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You got it exactly. And much of the time I really don't LIKE the person I am now. I feel like I've lost most of my better qualities. I'm not talking about forgetting words, but a whole new twisted way of processing thoughts and emotions.