HI Jen
I'm sorry to read you're in this nasty headspace again....

boy, I know how that feels... are you reaching out to talk to anyone there?.... or are you just wanting to vent cuz you know "this, too, shall pass"....
when I first heard that saying above.... I didn't like it.... especially when someone said it to me when I was in the throes of my depression... I still don't really like the saying... even though its true...
do you think you should get yourself to the hospital Jen?

Addy