Hi Jen.
Here are some Winconsen numbers that I want you to look at and save. Please look them over, and when you're feeling really low like it seems like you are now, please think about ringing them.
It won't hurt, especially if you'd rather not go to hospital. They exist only to help people like yourself.
http://suicidehotlines.com/wisconsin.html
I don't know if you've noticed the Sleepless thread up above, but if I'm online, I'll always chat to people in need, in the wee small hours of the night. If you want to talk to some-one, post a message there and if I'm around, you'll hear back from me within 10-15 minutes, usually.
Sending you some loving hugs.....
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