it's like a jigsaw puzzle you get all the edges finally but one! it's stuck to your elbow! then you sort things out by colorareas and you struggle along in the good light or bad evening light because you know you can do puzzle. you finally think you have it and then someone[ie dr] says no way that's missing 3 pieces!! so back again to scruntinizing until you cannot see anymore. but finally if we try over and over and sometimes over again ,we get the answer to our disease. then we have to leave it on the table for all to see[every dr who has another illness in his mind] we need to not let "it" beat us! whatever our "it" is! sorry for rambling but somedays i just have to!! love ya all