Darvacet helps me and doesn't make me sick. I know how you feel about being a different person. I have become someone different since my last fall. I used to be a yard work enthusiast, but now I have to have someone come and do the simplest thing. My depression has exacerbated, and I can't even come up with the energy to do the 2-step at the Senior Citizens Dance, although I am among the youngest person there. I am lonely. Thank God for your husband and pet your "ornamental" horses. They probably like that better than being ridden if the truth were known! My sincere sympathies. Pain is a bitter burden and a hard teacher.f billie