Pippi,
I am also so sorry that things haven't been good for you this past year. I also do believe and am in agreement with you that God has a bigger picture than me or you and that we will overcome these obstacles in our lives. Keep the faith and know that I will be praying for you and that we will come thru this. God Bless you and your family. Keep in touch when you can and don't apologize for the ranting....as I will probably be doing the same in the near future and will need for you to hear me out also. As the previous post said, only we understand what we are going thru, so you have our understanding!
God Bless You,
Simon