JH, I am so sorry for what you are continuing to go through and so grateful for this information your posted, as my doctor is insisting on ECT. I'm glad that are have a place to live where you can work, be retrained to some extent and have some help and companionship. I would be all alone with a cat to take care of after the ECT. Can't very well give away a 13 y/o cat companion. Like some of the others, I think time will provide some answers and help for you, and it is so wonderful that you can work. I have ST memory problems to begin with and can't boil pasta to begin with, come to think of it! I know that feeling like a different and less capable person must be traumatic for you. But I'll bet you are well liked, loved, and the same person on the outside and in the heart! billie