((((((((((((((((Billie)))))))))))))))))
God will never let you go! IF you were to decide to have ECT because you truly believed it would help you, He would still be with you.
there is a verse in the Bible that says NOTHING can separate us from His love.
(Romans 8:38)
It must be very hard to have your doc tugging on one side yet your own uncertainty. I hope you will keep asking questions about ECT before consenting, and and that you will find the answers you need to decide if it is the right treatment for you. You need to agree to this very big step in confidence, not under pressure IMHO
I am totally convinced of the truth tho that nomatter what .... God will never let go of your spirit and your relationship with Him. I pray you will be able to hear what direction God is giving you, and be able to make your choice on whether to have this treatment or not with peace, knowing He IS with you.