anxiety strkes daily if my [more like when] body and mind get into a certain state. james parkinson believed pd was from anxiety and stress didn't he? born with colic [they think they found the cause - a bacteria. then who knows what 6 months of crying and misery does to brain development, i am wound tight. it is between the hours of 4 and 6 p.m. and is largely due to not enough eaten and l-dopa overload.

Panic sets in when i start adding up what i've eaten. it's a chemical/nutritional/ metabolic state of being, and as much as i hate it, i seemed destined to repeat the mistake, frequently forgetting to pay attention in the evenings, when i must have two xanax to sleep..and not hungry.

here's an encouraging observation and recent. i am at a better place at the moment, personally and focused, and you can gain some energy back but am usually too immobile. Dyskinesia is my work out. When i get this high anxiety state of body, i have to have someone with me or call someone. however, i am dancing at midnight, what a mess. where's the hula hoop?

thriller - what a dance song!
works out some of the anxiety by moving, let's not be picky.
paula