i'm just not doing well. i can't talk myself out of this. i feel that i'm slipping (even though i'm now back in the new city). i know this downward spiral so well. i don't know how to make it out of this alive.

i can't stop crying. it's been like 6 days straight of this. i don't know. i'm so lost. i don't know what i'm doing anymore.

i'm so scared.