Dej, life is often like this, when even if there are choices none of them are good. The answer is not clear. And it's hard to still the circus in your head - let alone everyone else's clammoring - long enough to listen to your heart.

You want a definate answer - exactly how many lesions, in exactly how many months, etc, etc... And you know, I'd want that too. I'd want to know if ty would be safe for me. where is the gypsy fortune teller who can tell me?

What is the outcome of this decision, of that one? I have to know before I go there.

And we both know, there's no way of knowing. We have to trust that, something is going to show us the right way. and whatever happens, good or bad or indifferent, that is how it is supposed to go.

As much as I am glad that you can trust your docs, and you have a good man who stands by you, at the end of the day, only YOU can make this decision. Even if they are not on board.

Know this - there is no wrong choice.