Thank you all SO much for your kind words and support - I really appreciate it and it really helps me keep on going when i'm feeling down! I'm not sure what i'd do without you guys - it's so nice to have someone to talk to who can totally understand what I am going through!!

I'm really excited about starting college in September - I just hope that my RSD wont stop me from participating in any of the things I have to do in order to pass the course! I've been told that it's going to be really hard work but it's something I want to do so hopefully, it will be worth it!! It's SO hard trying to not let RSD win but it's ruled enough of my life and my doctor has basically told me that I will have this for life unfortunately so i'm going to have to try and get on with things, even if it's going to be hard.

The course seems to be really good. If you pass, at the end of it you will get a diploma in Society, Health and Development which is equivelent to 7 GCSEs (not sure if thats what they are called in the US but they are realy big awards that most employees look for when you go for a job interview). As well as the diploma, you also get other awards in safety, hygeine, food preperation, communication etc so it's a really good award to have!! At the end of the course, if I pass, i'll either have the oppertunity to go onto college and do the level 2 exam or get a job straight away. I think i'd probably go onto college if I could cope with it as you get a better job that way.

Mike - My mums currently looking into the online teaching option for me so that I could do my science and citizenship online. The problem is that it would cost a lot of money and my school is being really awkward saying that I have to go back to do all of the praticals etc so it's a no win situation!! I've spent many nights lately crying about going back to school because of how people are towards me. I was sat in the car the other day with my mum and 2 girls from my school shouted something rude about my ilness - they were supposed to be my friends but the minute I fell ill, they disappeared!! I just wish I could stay at the school centre as my friends are great there and dont judge me cos of my RSD! I think we will probably go down the online teaching bit for those 2 lessons as long as we can find somewhere that would be happy to take me on.

Thanks again everyone and i'll definitiely keep you posted as to how my first placement and how the course goes once I start it in September!