I am so sorry you are feeling such unrest.. I will keep you in my prayers to feel better soon. In the next life God and I need to have a talk on whys. First why crimes against children close second..why mental illness. We could otherwise be healthy and productive if not for whatever it is we have or don't have in our heads....and why is treatment so hard to get right and stay right?
You have been such encouragement to me.. hang in there...
Peace~Pam