Manda, I vote for your "own" city. It will become home, and with new memories, new customs, new rituals. I recently had to make a similar choice and I decided to throw myself into this neighborhood and make it feel more like home. Taking walks and getting to know it in a way you cannot just by driving around, shopping and dining in as many of the little shops close by as I can, setting up some new rituals in the neighborhood. Just little things, such as getting a dipped cone at the corner DQ on Sunday. I miss some things from my old neighborhood but not the traumatic memories that every landmark seems to remind me of-usually when I least expected it. And I am old, Manda, so making new memories doesn't always sound appealing-old people tend to like to bask in the old memories. But when those become tainted with hurtful ones-hey-make new ones. Lots of little new ones! Thanks for sharing your struggles-we are all more alike than we are different-especially on NT!