(little J got a turtle for his birthday and I had to go help him change the water and feed the little guy. LOL)
so, where do I begin (well, to start with, I am pretty drugged up with oxycodone and other pain killers, so forgive me if I get digressed and start sounding ornery. LOLOL
Oh, I know...
first of all...thank you all so much for the wonderful notes of encouragements and prayers and positive thinkings...
it's funny how those few lines of love and encouragements can mean so much to the heart and the mind. I am truly truly touched as is moss.
there are so much going on with everyone of you yet so many of you take the time out to wish me well. I feel so flattered and honored.
I am healing better than expected. I started walking the second day after my surgery, LOL and by the third day, I've walked around the nurse's station.
So, the doctors are happy about my progress.
Healing, as I am finding out, isn't a linear process. A couple of times, I feel like I could go out and lift a Mack truck. But only to find out I could lift a Mack truck in a 1/32 scale. Then there are days that I feel absolutely like I want to puke my guts out and just lie there and do nothing.
Most of the time, I feel like my head has been cut off. Only to be put together by fish hooks that are attached to my spine and being tightened by a crank. I literally feel like I am headless physically but that's getting better because when I get to feel my head on top of my shoulders, it is still there (darnit. LOL)
while I was in the hospital, two young med students came in to remove my stitch, only in the last minute did they find out that I was NOT the patient that needed to have the stitches removed. I thought it was kind of funny but moss wasn't too happy about that. LOL
I have 15 staples on the back of my neck, it feels like a zipper and that I have been zipped up. Maybe I can unzip it and a new "moi" will come out in an alien form (which really, is what I am...ya know?I plan on conquering the world by devouring all the positive, nice energies that you all emit)
in the front of my neck there is about a 5 inch cut horizontally which looks very straight. I am marvelled at their precision and wondered if they used a ruler as a guide to make the incision.
I was told that I was a special case because they have put so much hardwares in me more than anyone they'd ever had put in anyone else. It piqued my interest and I plan on finding out this weds when I go back for my check up.
but I am up and walking whenever I can. I stumble a little bit but I've already started my own little rehab here and there.
I am trying to be a good boy and listeon to boss moss, but sometimes, I just feel like I need to do more.
My trachea and esophagus are still bruised and swollen. So eating is not really fun. Every bite I take in, I cough out at least 2/3rd of it, only then to rechew it again, kinda like a cow...LOL
but it is shrinking and now I am able to make sense when I talk and I can speak at least 2 sentences without going into some major cough or choking sensation.
(are you guys bored yet? LOLOLOL)
today is the first day I am able to sit for a nice long duration without feeling my head is going to fall off.
All in all, I'd say I am recovering quite well. There are days that I feel like I am the headless horseman (without a horse but I do have a broom that I ride.
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I do sleep a lot. I usually sleep until noon and then I go back to sleep again around 5ish and then well, I just sleep...
but today is one of those days that I feel the need to get back here, on line, and see what's going on with some of my utmost favorite peoples in the world...
because a big part of moss and me believe that it is all your prayers and positive thinkings that have made me come through this tough surgery with success....
as for my tics, yes, whenever I'd tic, I can feel some numbness and pain coming back. But the doctor says that's normal. As long as I take it easy and "follow" the orders, he thinks I'll recover fully.
the greatest thing about this, is that I can feel all of my fingers and toes again. It's still hard for me to type fast. But what a difference.
And all the join pains and all the other associated pains that I had...most of them are gone...and I hope they continue to being gone...
after battling the "disability" I have even more respect for those of you that have to deal with your maladies daily...and I pray and hope to the core of my being that someday, science and medicine will cure each and everyone of you one day....
well, I hope this made sense. I can feel the pain meds kicking in so I am going to head back to bed and put my head back...
but please know you are never far from my thoughts...
((((BIG HUGS))))) for the broom
much love
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moi zooming out...