dear nik,

there are many talkers in this world...but not many walkers that will walk the talk...

you are definitely a walker...

your strength is amazing...in all your angst and anguish, you have found that will...to survive and thrive...

and you show us that it is NOT easy...it is tongue biting and brick throwing and mouthful of cuss words...

but still, you are doing it...

and as you post your "blog" to us...you are showing people a way to survive...

just like Alpho has shown us how to survive as well as many here that have shared how they survived...

it is NOT easy to survive...I've met some that simply numb themselves senseless (perhaps that's a transition to the next step of survival, I hope so)

but you are fighting it, you are battling it, and you are not doing it sitting down...you are walking and walking and standing tall...

you keep at it...you keep on talking....your emotions, all of them...raw...give it to us...

we need it....