thank you SO much for being there for me, abbie. although these bouts are getting less frequent and shorter in length, they still bring me down so much.

i am not a very religious person at all...but last night, i believe i got a bit of good energy sent my way from some sort of higher power. my friend that lives across the country called me out of the blue. i haven't seen him in a year (no hard feelings, we still keep in touch when we can). i couldn't believe it. he called me just as the first tear hit my cheek. i regained some hope and faith in people around me. he wants me to move to a new city by the ocean with him....he's got me tempted...but i can't keep trying to run away. i need to build.

maybe i should re think my religious views....

thanks again! you're my rock