Thanks guys for your kind words - I truly appreciate them! It's SO hard not to let RSD affect my life but my doctors basically told me that unless theres a cure sometime soon (which I hope and pray all the time for!), I will have this for life unfortunately so i've got to try and get on with things as much as possible. It is REALLY hard to hear those words but I do understand what he means. I don't think i'll ever fully accept that i'll probably have RSD forever but I know I can't do anything about it and that i've got to try and live my life somehow. I know that i'm going to have limitations with the college course but the tutors seem to be really nice and understanding so hopefully that should help! The only thing that kinda worries me is that they made it clear that we can't have time off for hospital appointments - not sure how that will work because of my RSD but guess it's something we will have to try and sort out! Most of the other kids on the course are really nice and friendly so that helps. I think it's easier as they all have an interest in health as that is why they are on the course.

I'm still stressing out about going back to school for the few lessons that I have to go back. It's such an hard decision to make as to whether to go back - if I don't go, I risk failing some lessons and if I do, I risk making my health worse. I wish my teachers would understand how upset and stressed i've been about going back but they don't. I was on Facebook the other day and one of my old 'friends' asked if she knew who I was! That REALLY hurt me! Me and her used to be really close, spent lunch together, had most lessons together and the same friends etc and now she doesn't even remembe me!! I guess i've learnt who my true friends are now that I have RSD and I don't think any of the kids at my old mainstream school were ever my true friends. The kids at the school centre are great and have been in touch with me all the time they knew I haven't been well but the kids from my other school, haven't been in touch. I think they just used me for what they could get as I used to take them to the movies, we went to see the Pussycat Dolls for my 11th Birthday etc. I try and ignore them the best I can but it's still really hard at times.

My mums still looking into the online teaching. They do Science classes online but they cost about $250 which is quite a lot of money. I'd have to do my Citizenship class online also as I need that for the course. Were off school until the beginning of September now but my mums going to email them and tell them how stressed I have been and see if they can do anything to help.

It's under a month now til I start college which is kinda scary but exciting at the same time! I know it's going to be a lot of hard work but hopefully it will be worth it !

Thanks again everyone for your support and i'll keep you posted when I can!