hi doxie,

it is so great to see you post...and the spoon story, while I've read it before, still rocks me a bit when I read it.

For me, I can relate on so many levels yet I know I never will be able to fully understand...

just like when people ask me what does it feel like to have TS, or why can't I "CONTROL" it...I often find myself a few spoon and screws short and just not know what to say...

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on the other hand, that is why I felt the need to thank you guys with my post prior to going to the surgery.

on my friends list, the MSers take a big chunk of that list.

I've had the honor of meeting Twinks and Kelly in person and while they look very good, I know that they are having a hard time inside, with MS.

and then there are the ones I haven't had the priviledge of meeting in person yet that have MS...

how you all are going on, each day...

when every single minute can mean losing 1 to 10 spoons....yet you find it in yourself some how, to live...to move on...to just be....

then, I see people around me, that are able bodied that are complaining about everything...I see family members of both sides able bodied not wanting to work, not wanting to get a job, and they only want to blame the society or another family member for their own downfalls...

it makes me angry..it makes me angry that they had the nerve to even sit there drinking their beer or smoking their weed just to whine and gripe while there are heroes like you, and Koala, and twinks, and Kitty, and my MS friends (sorry, can't get to name you all) out there living....day to day...doing the best that you can do...

it makes me angry...

of course, there are many of my other friends that suffer other debilitating illnesses and diseases that deserve just as much accolade that you MSers do...and you go on LIVING...

when I was going through my "disabled" body parts periods....

I had to find it in myself to get up out of bed some days...and it got hard toward the end (prior to surgery)

but I would think to myself and often refer myself back here to my friends' list and ask myself...would he/she be up now? What would they do?

And I'd some how find a way to get up again...

thank you for posting....

thank you ALL for being who you are...to me, each and everyone of you, are truly the ones that I LOOK up to...