I'm so glad to hear your still hanging in there! Please don't give up hope. It has been so hard on you and you have already been threw so much. We all still care and encourage you to write when you need someone to talk to. There will be a doctor that will help help you. I have a poster on my wall that say's: LORD HELP ME TO HANG IN THERE!
Ask for help when you need it, and yes, take your hubby along with you. You need each other so much. We are here for you.
Hugs,
Billie