awwwwww ((Moi)) Got me to crying now. Going through a very difficult time at the moment. I feel I am being consumed in the grief, Dad's suicide, and losing Lynn inch by inch....but I AM still fighting very hard. Swimming like crazy against the relentless tsunami.

Fighting IS hard. It's exhausting. There is no way around it, I have to work my way through it. Suicide is no answer. Dad fought I am sure, I know he did. Without a doubt, I know he did not mean to destroy us. I know he loved us with all he had. That does so little to console my breaking heart though.

I am not ready to come back, but I had to today. I needed to "ground" myself. To reflect on how far I have come. To be reminded, others have survived this loss. To find the hope I always find here. Much love my friends