Thanks everyone for your help and support! I'm trying to forget about my old 'friends' as I know they aren't true friends seeing as they haven't been with me through the rough as well as the bad times though it is hard. I now know that I don't need them to cause more stress in my life ... I have enough already with the RSD and everything else. Like the quote say "The only people you need in your lives are the ones that prove you are needed in theirs" - guess I need to start realising that more!!

My mum and I had a lengthly discussion today about what I will be doing from September etc and we have both decided that it would be better for me if I could do Science and Citizenship at home. My mum is going to enroll me into a science and citizenship ship course tomorrow. It will cost about £400 which is a LOT of money but hopefully, it will be worth it. The course is all online and they will send paper work and asignments out for me to do as I go along. I'll still get the full qualification that I would in school - it should just be easier and will free up more time for hospital appointments etc.

We go back to school on the 9th September so my mums going to write a letter to my school telling them what we are going to do. Hopefully they will be understanding. They haven't supported me through any of this so I think we don't have any other choice. At least at the school centre, the teachers and other kids are understanding about my ilness and don't judge me.

Lifes going to be crazy from September but hopefully, with the help of my tutors and doctor, we will be able to come up with a plan that will work and i'll be able to get through all of the course ! My first placement will be in November and will last 10 days. I'll be working in a nursing home with old people so i'm looking forward to that as it should be interesting!

Tomorrow would have been my grandads Birthday so I think it's going to be a pretty tough day. He passed away last November after an heart attack and I miss him a LOT! They say it gets easier within time but I don't think it does ... I still spend many days crying about not being able to see him and say our final goodbye etc. My nanan and I are going away next week to a caravan that we have - we were going to go this week but it would have been too stressful for us probably. It's SO hard knowing that i'll not be able to see my grandad this year on his Birthday.

Thanks again and i'll let you all know how I get on when I start in a few weeks time!