Suede/Linda, you are not whinning, you are sharing your heart with friends that care! That is why I am so thankful to Doc Jon for making us a forum to get the old BT folks on. I missed all the love, kindness, caring, sharing, venting, and the chances to learn about our conditions. We need each other to bounce off of and to find out that our guilt, and for myself, useless feelings are normal! I get the ole "oh but you look so good" comments. well, pain does NOT HAVE A CERTAIN LOOK! Oh my....I have started to rant...slow down gaye!
By the way I too pay all the bills and stuff. I can't remember anymore what I have paid and what I haven't. LOL I have such a bad case of brainfog!

Idealist, you are so smart to do your own pain exam! I think I will check out mine too, good idea. I do know that I have a spot on my chest that if I touch it all, the thoracic pain will start up immediately, so I try to NEVER tough that spot. found out the hard way. Gaye