Hey all,
I just wanted to thank you all for your support and your help. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know.
I have a problem though with seeing another doc right now. i am still in the middle of a lawsuit with wc and They are the only ones that can say who I see and who I don't because I can't afford to go to far out on my own. I can't get health insurance ever since my injury and dx and the meds are just sinking us because wc renigged 2 yrs. ago on our settlement of an open file so we are fight them again. I am on 6 or 7 different meds and living on only my hubby's income so we are really starting to sink. So its not easy for me to be able to get another doc not at least until the atty. says I can see someone else that wc will cover.
As far as my walker, I went out in public today with it and it just seemed I had all eyes on me and it was kind of embarassing. I felt like I didn't belong but I kept with my chin as high as I could keep it considering the circumstances and kept going about my business. I did hear a couple of comments but tried to let them go. Was very hard but some how managed.
I am only 36 yrs. old and feel like a total outcast. While trying out the new walker I realized it might not work because it does take some pressure of my hands even though it does have wheels and my hands start to hurt after a bit of usage so am not sure what I am going to about that yet.
As far as family goes that is another story in itself. I am talking about my side as far as mom dad and sisters and brother. I had a conversation with my mom yesterday and told her how she was making me feel by leaving me out of some of the new adventures her and my sister went to. For example to the nascar races (no I am not a real nascar fan but neither is my mom) but it is something different, to wrestling in Cedar Rapids,Ia and to my younger sisters house which I have not been to since she has moved 6 months or better ago. She lives in Williamsburg, Ia and I don't know how to get there so i would follow my mom but of course no invites. To make a long story short, my mom told me that yes the reason she has not invited me to different things is because of my disease. Now if that didn't cut like a knife I don't know what would. I told her to let me make my own judgement call on whether I think I can do these things or not instead of her trying to make the call because she knows nothing about this disease which is true cuz she has never researched it. So I don't know if my family will ever accept what I have or not. I guess sucks to be me! Life hurts sometimes but some how some way I need to find a way to make it through no matter how hard it gets.

Thanks again for all your help and opinions. it really helps to know you have friends out there who care. Thank you to all and may God bless you all.


Sincerely,
Tracy