Thanks you guys. Like I said, you guys get it. I can deal with dragging my right side a bit and slurry speech, but I don't want another craniotomy. I am an information guy and I am afraid I am getting some "freshmanitis" and experiencing everything bad.

People tell you "well, it beats the alternative." How do you know?" Like the book title says "We Plan, God Laughs." (Old yiddush proverb) I am just scared of the unknown and uncontrolable I guess. What a baby