I always want to jump in and start giving advice-even when I don't know enough specifics to be able to really help, but in general, I will say: Are you sure there is no one to help you? I have stepped in and made huge differences in people's lives before once I discovered their needs. Unless you live in a very secluded place, there is probably someone around your area-that would actually find it fun and challenging to help you. Please rethink evey connection you have with people and maybe there will be someone you could ask for help from.
You probably know this about AD's, but you can try 10 kinds or more and then suddenly one will just click and you get some relief! So don't let your doctor off the hook if he/she hasn't found one that really works well for you.
I hope you can feel the love pulsing out from these hearts.