i'm so sorry things have precipitated like this.

i think the feeling like all the people are around comes from many things:

you have had
- movers coming in and about
- kitchen installers/counter gluers around you
- and now parents around

when we do not get sleep - especially the deep cycles, we do not process our daily activities properly. i think you are suffering from severe sleep deprivation. and i think that correcting this needs to be TOP priority, at any cost. work, manuscript, hubby, parents... all come second. this is what i think.

i hope your dad can be understanding about the manuscript. i hope you feel ok about talking to him about deferring that. he sounds understanding ... from past posts.

i want you to feel better Mari.
and the way i think you can feel better - not just momentarily or for an hourish, is with SLEEP. please get it, ANY way you can.

((( hugs )))

~ waves ~

(currently being kept irritably awake by town festival. (from my condo, w/ all windows shut, i can hear about 2, sometimes 3 "concerts.") well, at least, it will end at 2 am... supposedly. i am not sleep deprived tho. it is just making all of my nerves jangle and i hate all of the musics.)

i have repeated impulses to go down there and yell obscenities at them, about them, and about their so called "entertainment," but i would probably just get arrested, since it's the town fest. i will have to do earplugs and extra meds much as i hate that.

sorry... vent there... sigh. better than acting on it.

BUT MARI.

GET SLEEP. PLEASE.

DROP MANUSCRIPT.

TAKE KLONOPIN.

AND KNOCK YOURSELF OUT!!!

AND REPEAT UNTIL FEEL MUCH BETTER.