Fin I'm sorry you are having one of those "I wish I didn't have MS" days. They are the pits. I'm having one too--maybe because today is the second anniversary of my diagnosis, I was supposed to go the movies tonight with a friend and I feel too tired and the cognitive stuff was especially bad this week and that really scares me. I know what you mean about all of the doctors visits. I also only went every couple of years until the MS came along. Now I feel like I spend all my time in waiting rooms and worrying about health stuff. I think you definitely have the right to whine and have a pity party! Maybe it's cathartic and necessary. I am hoping you feel better soon.