Jennifer-
please make a call -
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline --
{Its toll-free number, 1-800-273-TALK (8255),
connects individuals to crisis centers across the country.}

and reach out to someone for help ... talk more here.. with us..
there are many caring people here on the forums.

here is some links and numbers-
http://psychcentral.com/helpme.htm
http://psychcentral.com/resources/Suicide_and_Crisis/

more-
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/spagebw.htm
http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/depressd.htm