I wanted to answer you and tell you how sorry I am for what you are dealing with.

I have been sick since 87. Not just RSD though, it came on in 98 along with the TOS and Fibro and too much more to name. I have had 24 surgeries since 95, and I still don't feel like I have went through a lot of what you have.

I lost my husband Bill almost 3 years ago and lost a lot of family and friends, that has been hard.

For the most part though, I feel blessed. I had 34 years with Bill, I have a great family. My kids think about me before they do anything major. They want to move to the mountains and they are determined I am going with them but I'm still not sure I want to go. It's cold enough here in the winter time.

I really sympathize with you for the court issues you are going through. What I have learned in this life it seems the good are the ones taken advantage of.

I can't imagine what it is like to not have your kids in your life. I have Susan and her family and my step-kids, which treat me like family even though Bill is gone.

I had a lousy lawyer for SS. If I had that to do over again, I would have pulled myself up by the bootstraps and fought for it myself. I do know about cruddy lawyers.

As far as happy things, my kids, my grandkids, my antiques, my Dr., my friends. I have more then enough love in my life. I wish someday you can find that in yours.

Ada