well .. here's another update:

still waiting for the state insurance program to approve my ap - and THEN, I have to have more tests done ... and he (GP) won't write a letter of necessity to my lawyer until he gets all the tests ... and my lawyer won't submit an emergency request to bump the 'trial' up until he gets the letters from the doctors ...

I'm stuck in that circle - and I'm doing what I can .. and it seems like no one cares anyways ... I'm having a hard time about everything right now ...

sorry for being gloomy ... I'm wondering if it's all worth it anymore ..