Hello thelonely1,

I hope that in finding this forum, you realize you have found a haven of support ...

I know all about depression - and reaching out is one of the most difficult things to do... it take a lot of courage ...

posting here took courage! Congrats on that first step

Please reach out for help from a doctor, too... if you're already on meds - tell him/her that they're not working (finding the right depression med can be very draining but the end result is worth it, along with the right therapy) ... educate yourself about depression...

Become your own best friend... we're here to help you