I had one of my "big" siezures yesterday in church! I hate having them out in public! I had been siezure free for 3 weeks after upping to 800mg of tegretol a day, thats the longest I have ever been with out a seizure these past 4 months. I went into my normal staring seizure that led into me tightning up and jerking hard. When I go into those it is VERY difficult for me to get out of. I knew it was gonna happen and there was nothin I could do about it and nobody was able to start helpin me until I started jerking because they didnt relise I was having one. I hate not being able to move or talk and its just pich black. It is like you are stuck in your brain. We are gonna see if my dr will put me on another med along with the tegretol because its obvisly not holding me over. These things are so frustrating and embaressing when your out in public!