Sorry i have not been around. have not been able to.

Pammy, thanks for remembering me.

i am between two parental birthdays back to back and there are fights back to back as well.

btw, Beth, i hope you guys have a good evening... Happy Birthday Jeff.

Funny art should come up... i have a block ... on everything. not just my art. i mean, i can't sing, i can't compose, i can't write (including poems), i can't draw, i can't paint or do any other paper/media work... photography too expensive for me now but i couldn't anyway.

i feel like i am living in a cement block. i have a tiny tiny chisel and sometimes i try to use it haphazardly. then something happens and the block gets moved or all shook up and i get very hurt and i am a mess.

plans? hmmm. well, my plans were to watch the House premiere but the network ehhh... didn't show it as advertised? doesn't matter, they screwed me out of watching the older seasons anyway so it's all kind of come undone to me.

Mari i am glad you are making progress with your appointments and able to ask for the help you need.

i am starting to think i am beyond help.

~ waves ~ of despondency and desperation