Dear Waves,
Is a hospital an option that you have considered?
Can you let someone take care of you?
Have you been through the hospital idea in your mind?
Is this something new right now -- the past few days?
Or has this been going on a long time?
I'm thinking from what you wrote that maybe this is a long time coming but more recent in intensity.
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Originally Posted by waves
... the whole cosmic thing... it's complicated, and the true fact is, i am uncertain of anything and everything. i feel i am too small a being to "know." by the same token i am still terrified of a possible eternity in flames. or, you know, in Islam, it is the most despicable crime to take your life which is the most precious God-given gift, and the punishment is an eternity... not in hell flames, but reliving whatever suffering/means you employed to die.
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My religious beliefs are still forming and not centered in any one clearly expressed group. But I know that we are supposed to live. We have to. That is the job / task we have been given. I'm sure of it. And it is not quite the same as yours with enternity being involved. My thinking does not go that far into the future.
I'm trying to say that living is best.
(And I stink at writing right now. I apologize for that.)
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a former therapist used to ask me where i hurt. when i am upset. the parts are, the stomach, the chest, and the throat. especially the throat. the throat is the seat of self-expression and creativity in the chakra system. interesting, considering one of my big problems is my inability to create, to do my art, to express myself... to GET ON WITH LIFE... SOMEHOW.
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Waves, I read your whole post. But I feel my self writing / trying to respond to the part that I can.
You know more about the chakras than I do. But I think you need the lower chakras at this moment - the ones with the physical life force.
I saw this on a web site a few days ago about grounding so I am going to link to it.
http://chronicle.com/forums/index.ph...,63190.30.html
You are stuck in the upper chakras (crown/eye/throat) and weak in the lower (root/pelvis). Over activity in the upper zone of communication and intellect, while experiencing deep deficits and drain of security from the root is manifesting as a perception of burning the candle at both ends with nothing to show for it. Is your breathing shallow? When you stand up do you ground through two feet?
If you are going to use these models hara/chakra/meridian/marma, take them beyond the metaphor and start to do something about it. Recognize this is as much a boundary crisis as burnout. You are leaky as well as strained.
Work with the breath. Stand up. As you inhale, visualize a bright column of energy descending from the crown down to the root through the spinal cord. Obviously, you sense it cannot get there due to the core dryness, but do it anyway. On exhalation release all that energy through you feet into the ground. Do that at least 5 minutes.
Then reverse the sense of energy connected with breath and add movement. On inhalation, sweep your arms up over your head. You can bend you elbows and allow the palms to touch. As you inhale, sweeping, visualize drawing vital energy up from the core of the earth. As you exhale, lower your arms, consciously releasing and exchanging your own energy back into the ground. Feel the connection. As you proceed, connect to above and below.
Recognize you are a part of the whole.
Take care.
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Is it true that you need some one right now?
Someone to reach?
I feel that maybe you are not connected.
Mari