my pdoc, once a week, for an hour. anybody else? no. even if there were, a crisis line i couldn't talk about things - they involve my family and i have NO PRIVACY here. no matter what room i'm in my parents can hear EVERYTHING.

and i'm afraid if i let things out too much he will call my parents. i told my mother today when the "switch" happened" and i suddenly plummeted into this... i also told her i didn't have the means and would not do anything because i felt the risk was too high of being only maimed. she calls my talking "threats" and i don't think she realizes i really think about it. in any event, i don't think she could handle it if she thought of it any other way perhaps.

thanks for replying.

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