Dear Waves,

I'm sorry that you're having such a bad time at the moment. Thanks so much for reaching out to us. Writing here is a positive, proactive step that convinces me that you are capable of doing even more of the things you need to do to help yourself.

I agree with the others that you really need some serious intervention - now. I appreciate your eagerness to find employment. However, I wonder if you're like me and tend to cling to the thought that there is some "magic bean" that would make everything all better if you could just obtain it. I wonder if in your current state, a new job might just prove to be another stressor. Perhaps it would be better just to concentrate on how you're feeling right now? If hope of landing a job is keeping you from seeking care, then I wonder if that's in your best interest.

You really need help now. Please reconsider going to the hospital. If you don't want inpatient care, please be completely honest with your therapist. He/she can't help you without all the facts. If you can't articulate your thoughts orally, take your posts with you.

Please look for support groups in your area. If that feels overwhelming, let someone else do it for you. I suspect that just getting out of your house to go to group might make you feel better.

Yes, you need some time out from your domestic situation. I know that's hard when money is tight. However, even finding a quiet corner of the public library might give you a chance to recharge a bit and realize there is a world beyond your four walls.

Please keep posting.