My sister and I were never close. I was younger, and remember trying hard to get to play with her, or be with her. She was always busy, or tied up. Made it very clear that she thought I was a worthless snot ball from the start. My parents did nothing to foster a family envoirnment. I was always told that if she didnt want to be with me, to leave her alone. She always had an attitude of entitlement to her. I have no idea where she got that. Like the world owed her something. I on the other hand always had a work ethic. I saved my money, she spent every penny, and asked for advances on the next paycheck. I repaid every loan, or kindness. I didnt forget those who helped me. She acted like they owed it to her, so why should she even say thank you.

Strange how two girls, one year apart, can be so different. I have always felt a hole in my life where she would have fit, but I cant force her to come to it. I refuse to let her treat me badly, and have asked her to leave my home, and my family when she displayed behaviors that made me upset. Stealing from my children isnt allowed! "their just kids, they wont miss it." she would say. OUT! I would say. so, its been a twisted path from the get go. I learned long ago to live my life without her as a major player in it. Sad, cause I really could have used a sister.